I Got Something To Say !

I am having a very hard time this month as I do every year at this time dealing with anniversaries of peoples deaths that are in my family like my mom and my papaw. My mom was born Oct 20th of 1919, she died Nov 1 1999. My papaw died Oct 24 th about 5 years before she did. It's all very hard you see. I know there in heaven in a much better place, but it doesn't stop me from missing them. I don't like to think about it. I try not to be sad. I try not to think about them so that I want be sad. Sometimes that just doesn't work. God can heal our broken heart. The Bible says blessed are those that mourn for they shall be comforted so I try to hang on to that.

The Dance, It's all about forgiveness

Words said in anger
All in efforts of trying to heal
With a sorrowful heart I bend and kneel
Lord forgive me.

Enemies ,Frienemies
Fake and real
Sorry for the damage
Caused by my lossage , suffrage and the medicine I used to heal.
Sorry for the words illy spoken
and the way it made you feel.
Forgive me
I forgive you
Let this peace be a seal

Never let anything come
Between you and Gods only Son
Let Jesus remain in your hearts
Accept Him if you will
Let not a person or thing
in prison you
Let my love shine upon you
My friend , My neighbor, who ever hath an ear
Accept my peace
And forgive
Let it shine upon you
Sparkling in the night
Shine forever
Resting in the comfort of His arms
In peace and reassurance that Heaven is real

By : Bernice Bowling

Forgiveness, It Is A Choice

Unforgiveness  of past hurts and betrails, lies and abuse can take such a hold on you that it will produce a monster in you just like the ones who did you wrong only worse.  It will take your life and eat away at ever fiber of your being every part of you until their is nothing left. It starts out as a small seed , then before you know it . It's taken root and has grown into a large tree.

You have to forgive not only for you but for your life and peace of mind, and those around you. Don't ever think that it want effect the ones around you because it does. Whatever is in your heart will spill out somewhere and you have to be willing to make a choice. Am I going to stay this way, and end up going to hell ?  You can't go on living in unforgivingness and expect to be successful in life. It's too consuming and it want profit you anything.

Choose to forgive. Pray for your enemies and those who spread horrible rumors and lies about you. Pray for those who despitefully use you and those who are abusive towards you. Learn to forgive and walk in the way of love. For those of you who are in abusive situations, you must forgive, but you don't have to stay in that situation. It's best to get out before it's too late.

I can not express enough the importance of forgiving someone who does you wrong and tells lies on you and abuses you and whatever else they have done. You have to forgive everyone. You can not hold anything against anyone, and expect to go to heaven it is impossible. You have to forgive, no matter what. It's your choice. You have to be willing to make a choice. Now are you willing to forgive? It's up to you. You choose heaven or hell, It's that simple. Forgive or not forgive it's up to you. It doesn't matter how many times they lied and took advantage of you and told whatever lies about you that was told. You still have to forgive. No matter how many times they abused you in whatever way or used and mistreated you. You still have to forgive.

By:
Bernice Bowling

The Beginning Of Sins......A short story you don't want to know!

Darkened strays stalked the night air as she walked in the woods passed the moonlight creatures. She kissed the night in her heart as if it had been a lover. Oh how she loved it . The electricity of night is what she called it. No one knew the blood lust that existed in her. The blood craving that emerged so strongly at the least bit of anger. Anger so strong that she could murder almost anyone, almost.

The thoughts of her first kill would sing out in her ears forever as she reminisced how it felt to rip his skin off his clean freshly shaven head while he was tied up, and screaming those beautiful unearthly screams of his, ha, ha. What a sound she thought. She smiled , it was such a good smile, filled with such amusement that it was touching to the heart if you didn't know what she was really smiling about.

A soft bunny rabbit was what they thought of her. A soft furry bunny rabbit for them to pet, she thought as she laughed. She wasn't a bunny rabbit. She was more like a vicious demon from the darkest inner parts of hell that you could ever imagine. Fresh blood streaming down her blade as she slid the knife upward through his stomach only after scalping him alive then feeding the scalp to her wolf she kept as a pet near by for such things. Chuckling to herself remembering each detail. Oh no one knew what fun really was, no one, but her and maybe a friend or two.  The pain that man must have felt as she ripped him into. Splitting his man parts in half and dividing them between him and the wolf. Oh how she loved the feed, too bad he took all the fun out of it when he died to fast. What a wimp ! Oh but she would learn how to keep them alive longer over time. She would learn, these things take time. Trial and error don't you know,  trial and error.

By: Bernice Bowling

This short story is a good example of what a person could become if they don't learn to forgive and they let anger come in and take too great of a foot hold. You become a demon just like the ones who hurt you.  Learn to forgive and don't become like the horrible woman in this story. Invite Christ into your life. :)

Temperatures of Unrest

Sweat and tears pour down like rain
I watch in vein
While the years pour out
Upon this window
I watch this traffic flow by each day
Wondering where and why life has taken me this way
And then I realize time stands still
When the weather stops changing and temperature's of cool weather remain
Will it ever stop raining?
The sun needs to come out and shine a little upon us
Maybe if we were in a church house some where it would
Maybe that's what we needs to do
Give it to God let him see it through
He works everything out
He can even change the weather so its not so bad
And the people aren't so cruel.
Maybe somebody will be friendly maybe even a smile or two

By Bernice Bowling

Two Advils In One Hand And A Live Chicken In Another

Steely knives stabbing away at my insides
Hateful as a bear skinned alive
Trying to hide what I am feeling
Oh my goodness how painful this existence
Pain making my hands shake
As I try Not to bite the heads off live chickens

I bite the chickens heads off anyway and spit it out
Where's me another?
Pain, gloves and Advil
Maybe a little love and sympathy...... NOT
At least not from this bunch
Hell has no furry like  a woman in pain
Where did my love go?
It will come back with more Advil, lol.

Hand me my Pepsi
Anybody got anymore chickens?
A dog or two maybe a cat or a bird?
What ? Where did everybody go?
Don't run and hide?
Anybody got a Billy goat?

When will it end ?
I hate this pure pain
and nobody understands
My time is worse then everyone else's.
How could it not be?
Everyone else can function.
Not me.

I need a heating bad, medication and live chickens
To get me through once a month
When it all returns
Who to strangle?
Adam?
the snake?
Or Eve?

By Bernice Bowling

In case your wondering :  the gloves are for handling the live chickens. :)

Tid Bits and after thoughts of me rambling from subject to subject of the Bible

 We have forgiveness because Jesus died for our sins when he died on the cross and rose again the third day. Our belief in that is all we need to be saved from a devils hell.
 You must believe that Jesus is the son of God and that He died on the cross and rose again the third day. Confess your sins and ask God to forgive you and then forgive others as you have been forgiven. Trust God for the rest. If your having trouble forgiving ask God to help you and He will.  :)

How often have I felt like Daniel in that Lions den. you know the way you feel when you walk into a room filled with animosity, but nobody will say a word. You know they want to tear you a part, but their all playing lock jaw, at least in your presence. I'd say that's a lot like how Daniel felt as he was standing in this lions den. I don't think I would have slept there, but I imagine Daniel just may have cause he trusted in the Lord. He knew when you trust in the Lord no weapon formed against you shall prosper.

 I imagine what hell would be like when the angels are tossing you in there. The fires to me would look like molten lava. I don't imagine you would be able to see much cause the fires would be way to high . The air would be unbreathable taking your breath away where you can't even breath. I imagine the screams of all the lost souls and hellish angels to be so unnerving that it would spooke even the hardest of hearts. The very screams themselves would be like the liquid fires they were being burned in. swimming in the seas of hell. Somehow I don't think there will be any real swimming, but the presence of evil will be felt so strong that it would over take you if it weren't for the pain of the fires you were being burned in. Over and over never to feel anything ever again other then the presence of evil and those flames. It will be a place without God. That's some place I never want to be. By the way, I saw the outskirts of hell once in a dream it was much like I just described.  That was just the out skirts. It wasn't actually inside. So imagine that !

I love angels their so beautiful. The Bible does mention both male and female angels. I recently discovered a verse in the bible that tells about female angels. It is in Zechariah 5:9. We know there are male angels because of Michael the Ark angel That defends Israel, and Gabriel The messenger angel that was sent to Mary to tell her about Jesus, and now we have this scripture showing us that there are angels who are women. 

The Bible speaks of unicorns. So I know they exsisted. I am just not sure if they were like the unicorns in all the movies. I Imagine them to be among some of the most beautiful creatures to be seen. I can't wait to find out from God if that one horn has any sort of special meaning to it. I Imagine that it does, but I don't know that's just me and my thoughts on the matter. 


Virgins in the bible were a sign of purity, and to be kept that way until marriage. That goes for both men and women in case your wondering.  This double standard thing always ticked me off. What goes for one goes for the other and there's no changing it. If you don't believe me then try it and see if you go to Heaven Mr. male chauvinist ! Don't get me up on my soap box or I will never get off off that subject. 

My Heart's Song

Pain exist in two worlds of sorrow
I cry forever not to exist
Everything to go black
Nothing to be missed

Lord I am tired
Don't you see
I feel the pain and misery
I want to be free
I lift up my eyes to thee
From Thee comes my help

My heart is drowning
In sorrow
No one to save me,
Help lift me up
Everyone has closed eyes
No one to help me cry

They don't understand
I don't know how to explain
I need someone to listen
To help ease the pain

Sometimes, too weak to fight
Tired of fighting
I am not giving up,
Just trying to rest
Hopefully I want rust
Needing shelter from the storm
Please be my shelter

Right now don't even know how to stand up.
Instead I can only kneel
Feeling lost
Helpless, and alone
Please help me to feel alive again
With joy; and a reason to live
Making my smile  like sunshine
Warm and friendly

Take away the dark side
Leave nothing bad behind
Giving me peace.
Let depression leave

Where is this nothingness?
Where did it come from?
Take it away
Give purpose
Allow me to stay,
To pray
My son needs me

Fulfilling my purpose for whatever you sent
Even though I can't see it now
I Know that it's real
You are real
You give me hope
My God alone can save me
In Jesus  name I pray
Amen

By: Bernice Bowling

A work in progress :)

Jesus

Mark 14 :62 And Jesus said, I am: and ye shall see the Son of man sitting on the right hand of power, and coming in the clouds of heaven.

Matthew 24: 44 Therefore be ye also ready: for in such an hour as ye think not the son of man cometh

John 3 :16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him

should not perish but have everlasting life.

Matthew 24 : 43 But know this, that if the goodman of the house had known in what watch the thief would come, he would have watched, and would not have suffered his house to be broken up.

Matthew 25: 13 Watch therefore, for ye know neither day nor the hour wherein the son of man cometh.

Matthew ch 24: 30  And then shall appear the sign of the Son of man in heaven: and then shall all the tribes of the earth mourn, and they shall see the Son of man coming in the clouds of heaven with power and great glory.

Don't Loose Your Focus

She walks in the light of day
Eyes closed listening for a voice
To say my child comfort be with thee
Tears I wiped from your eyes
Cry no more
Let your joy be full
Walk away from this mourning

Close your eyes
Rest for a little while
I'll give you dreams
To help you make it through the night
They will come true
Trust in ME
I will see you through

She picks up a Bible
As she begins to read
She see's letters in Red
And where Jesus wept
She cried for Him
And He heard her
He dried her tears
And chased away her fears
He told her all she needed to hear

She listened for more
As her tears softly He dried
With a touch of His hand
He comforted her
When do I get to go see the promised land
He said be patient my child
Focus on ME
Forget about these other things
And you will see,
Everything I promised you
Just focus on ME
And you will see

BY: Bernice Bowling