Mourning Sorrows Glory

Tears from Heaven fall like pennies from A tree.
Sorrow has no place there.
My daddy is now free.

Pain is no more, not for the ones up there
As for me and my house
Like a river it flows without reserve

Clouds well up in my heart
holding tears of rain
Produced by mournful sorrows and tormented pain

Upon the wailing wall I pray
Spirit of God please come
Comfort us this hour

In great need we are
Of your heavenly presence
Send us your word.

Let us hold on to you
Keep us snuggled close
Please wrap us in your arms of mercy

Heal the broken in heart
Cover us in your feathers
Let us not forget praise be to your name


By: Bernice Bowling

A Dark Christmas Eve

Cold and cruel, Christmas Eve blows in, taking my daddy away to Heaven .
God bless those that mourn for they shall be comforted.
Cry's of thunder heard from within knowing my daddy is gone for good.
No more pain, no more tears, no more will he suffer again.

Heart quenching tears welled up inside my throat clinching my heart.
I love you daddy, I keep saying, hoping he will hear.
I wish I had him back to spend more time with and to talk to once again.
icy silence fills my home as I enter knowing he is gone.

I scream in remembrance of his presence feeling the forever emptiness now that is here.
The house is stale with hollowness that will never be filled.
take me away,  let me alone, let me scream out my pain in private,
while I hold my heart in my hand.
Laid in the ground, my heart, my love, my life, my daddy.

Blessed be the man that died on the cross
Jesus is his name
Through him is salvation
Through him I will see my daddy again
Cold is the grave that took him away
Blessed be the name of the Lord !

Tired and alone I sleep away my brokeness
I wake up still empty and hurting
feeling the comforter come once again
I think on good things and dry up my tears
Trying to forget my loss, my life and my home of tears
dying to be pain free I pray once again

Numb to the pain I try and smile
Make a joke or two to cheer everyone up
got to have strength you see .
The joy of the Lord is your strength.
I hold on to him.

By Bernice Bowling

My Blue Christmas

Sorrow dances across my face as thoughts of Christmas and another gone a rise.
Daddy is missing. He's not the same. He is aged in silver and his bones are brittle.His mind is worn with age.  We cannot take care of him by ourselves. He's in a home for the elderly and the feeble,  a health and rehab center, AKA " nursing home".

Christmas will not be the same. The first death has come once you enter the home . The second death is when you enter the ground. White rain falls as silver ice glistens on the roof tops and the trees. My daddy is gone. I miss him much. I am alone with my tear drops . They roll off my cheeks, still frozen red from the cold. They fall slowly to the ground.

Three important family members are now gone two are past, one is waiting, and I am left crying in the rain now iced. Winds blow coldly through the tree's whistling Merry Christmas. I remember the birth of Jesus told to me as a child, and I am thankful for Him that died on the cross and Rose again on the 3rd day. Comforted that I will see my family again one day . As for now day by day blessed are those that mourn for they shall be comforted.

I look over to the place my daddy lived, across the street.  finding it is empty. Only filled with memories, leaving me empty,and welled up with sorrow from deep with in. My eyes are the clouds that hold the rain that falls when too much is inside.

This is the day that the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it. Be thankful for the time that has past and gone. Be thankful for the present which is now. Be thankful for the God Given future ahead and the road less traveled that leads to Heaven. Where I will see my loved ones again . So Merry Christmas to me and all that receive the gift of Salvation. Thank you Jesus for dying on that tree. :)

By Bernice Bowling

My Son On the Ten Commandments

I was asking my son one day if he loved God and he said Yes mom I love God . Then I said well do you keep the ten commandments and he said just as serious as he could be " Yes I keep them right over there in that shelf".

Well I just about died laughing cause I had bought him a little cloth book that had the Ten Commandments embroidered on them .

I said " Jesse , I wasn't talking about keeping them that way. I was talking about obeying the Ten Commandments and he said Oooooh", lol.
Then I asked again "Well do you ? "
Then he said sheepishly " Well Some of them,"
 Well I never said nothing after this. I just thought well at least he is honest, lol.

My Mom the Preacher.

I got a funny story to tell on my son. We were talking about God and I was telling him about praying the sinners prayer and what it takes to be saved and then I was talking to him about baptsim. You see I had baptised him when he was little in our pool because he wanted to be baptised, but he didn't want to go to church to do it . So I baptised him my self and anyway I was telling him when he got ready he should get a preacher to baptise him. He said, " I THOUGHT YOU WERE A PREACHER" ! LOL 
He was dead serious ! He had even told some of his friends on line that his mom was a preacher well I laughed. I told him that was the best compliment I had ever gotten from anybody. I don't know what in the world made him think I was a preacher, lol. I DO DO DO BELIEVE in women preachers by the way. :)

Just Between You and Me

In my daddy's room is a small bear I made out of left over tye dyed fabric I used to make a bear for a friend of mine's little boy. Anyway, I got that bear hanging up in daddy's room and when I saw this tye dyed feather it was like God saying to me that angels where in daddy's room watching over him. You see tonight is the first night since daddy has been away from home that he is having to stay alone, and I was worried so this little reminder was a comfort to me . 

Now I know that when feathers appear that does NOT mean angels are near because it does NOT say that in the bible. I just think God used it to comfort me with where my daddy was concerned. :)