Gods Cry

My sorrow beckons me to tears as I sit here wondering about the years I've wasted.

The rain has not forgotten me she still pours washing away my fears.

Pain exists in form of shadows.

I dance away the times gone by listening to the shaman's song as he sings

I twirl and leap to his voice, I want to rejoice but alas my sorrow wants to let me.

How do I say No when I see his face my heart does crumble to the floor.

He doesn't care. He only ignores. I scratch up this face and slowly plumage into hate.

My heart hardens as the pain escapes.

I watch the mailman run for pleasure

As I sick Esmerelda on him

I laugh as she bites him on the ass taking a little more than he asked, lol

My cruelty want last, with each step forward I grasp

trying to make the happiness last

if only but for a moment

I sigh with cosmic relief when I see some release of what I've been holding inside.

I've got to let it hide, no one will know the pain and what goes on inside my mind.

I'm scary and unknown except to my friends. Some of them are now gone.

God keeps talking to me telling me to dry my tears and come home.

Home scares me. People are cruel and mean with their judgemental gleams

I stay away too scared to stay.

Oh I wish I had a way, maybe then I wouldn't decay

Gods calling out my name

I hear his voice

I am here Lord please help me come home

I am lost and alone.

BY: Bernice Bowling