A word from God given to me in the month of January 2013

 I wanted to know why I am here. What purpose do I serve ? I  needed to know that I am not fighting this all for nothing. Is my life always going to be useless? These are the questions I needed answered. 
These are the words that were spoken to me :
God has told you what he wants you to do , you think you didn't hear right or that you made it up in your head. It's that still small voice , do what he has told you & believe his word that been spoken to you and over you.
Your ministry may not be a platform as you have in your mind it may start with your day to day , the ppl you meet your family friends . 
When I was told this I knew it was true. So then I asked  if it was God's will for me to go back to school and try to get a job ? Then this was what was spoken to me :

I have given personal words before its new to me & I was so afraid that I would miss it or not telling what God had even told me but I know now I can feel it the anointing I'm afraid not to tell now , I didn't want to tell you , cause u may think crazy but I had to lol

As soon as I read if u should go back to school or get a Job , I immediately got I have told her what to do she has to trust me.

So then I said this :

There are still some things I am confused about. I have felt like I should wait on the Lord before I go back to college and then I felt like that the Lord was saying nothing changes until something moves. Maybe you could ask God to show you which one he meant. I don' want to be someone people look down on.

This is what was said to me after that :

I just got ur message I will pray about this , u have to remember if confusion comes its not God , were getting into reasoning & trying to figure things out for ourselves , now Peter did step out of the boat & was doing the impossible as long as he kept his eyes on Jesus. U pray about it to , I will get back to u lol

And u want to stay in his will , so look at all the examples in the bible from Noah to Abraham to the disciples God told them what to do odd as it may have been they did it with the exception of Jonah lol , he eventually did. It happened with ease Gods anointing was on it they were moving in his will , i personally believe that if we're fighting to make something happen & it doesn't let up , then we may need to ask God are we in his will, I don't know if it should be so hard , u have to have faith & step out & the unknown is scary but we can trust God to do for us as he said . Abraham didn't know where he was going & Noah probably was the town joke building a huge boat when it had never rained just think about that . U know they thought he was crazy.

Then a man spoke these words to me as I was talking to a friend of mine about going back to school , he sent this to me and he has never spoken to me . This was completely out of the blue. Here it is :

"I believe a change in Jesus name for you Praise God"

So what do you think from reading this ? What is your assessment ?