Obsession

Obsession

Cuddled and warm
Is my love for you
safe and unkept 
I wait patiently
for one drop of you
to touch my tongue
I cry awake at night
longing wanting, wanting you
I pine for you
I yearn for your touch
My loins call for you in the midnight hour
each night I see your face
Think of touching those sweet lips
The way your hair lays in waves
surrounding your face
embracing my heart
Your voice how it sounds
in my ears
The tone you speak in
The look in your eye
drives me wild
Passion burns my loins.
when I think of you,
I want to fuck
You touch me, me touching you
Scream for me
Scream for me now
How I want you in my bed
in my mind
in my body
in my soul,
in my life
uncontrollable wild passion
that cannot be tamed
consumed by you
not able to think or sleep
with only thoughts of you to keep me company
I live for you. I die for you
I breathe for you
I moan for you
You are
My Obsession

By: Bernice Bowling.

Engulfed in Nightfall

Darkness arises, spreading evil like a veil. She walks in darkness laughing.
She is not at home here. She used to be, but now it's just an evil place.
Hope lives here no longer. It escaped through an open window in the night air.

Smell the excitement, death awaits. Run to the song
Run to its embrace. Dance in the midnight hour
Let it go. Move to sway of the music
entrance yourself

Live no longer under its a spell, but your own.
Hear the sound of the demons?
Their calling, calling your name
listen to them

The sound is sweet
They know you here
They want you to come back home

Home where night never ends
home where shadows live
home where you belong
You belong in the darkness

By: Bernice Bowling

Counting your blessings when you're feeling down

Count your blessings when you're feeling down, no matter how big or small count them. Develop a grateful heart and Thank God for your blessings. This will help get you through those hard times. The list below is a list of mine

1. My son, Without him I am sure I would have killed myself a long time ago. He's my best friend. We talk about everything. There's nothing we can't talk about. I started when he was a baby having conversations with him about whatever was troubling me and getting him to do the same. I wanted him to feel like he could talk to me about anything when he got older and now he does and we are close. 

2. Jesus, for without God's son I would go to hell

3. My small family, though they are small they're good people and they love me

4. my friends who are there for me, both near and far away

5. Dogs because even though I don't have one they still make me smile

6. warm blankets to keep me warm when I am cold

7. a fan to keep me cool when I am hot

8. Food to eat

9. clothes to wear

10. Things to help keep my teeth clean with

11. Soap and water

12. Electricity

13. The Bible

14. Youtube 

15. The internet

16. My tv-shows

17. Nerds not the candy well yeah the candy too haha

18. books

19. Being overweight, yes I am thankful for that. It helps protect me and keep me safe

20. Our home, it's where I grew up

21. Mommy and papaw and daddy the people who raised me

22. Socks

23. Holidays, they bring joy

24. the things I collect

25. My hair

26. Variety and people's differences. I love diversity

27. I am thankful for myself. I like me. Is that hard to believe? Why do I like myself?

I try to be kind and good

I can sew and paint and even write

I have a good sense of humor

I have the most amazing son in the universe

I am not an idiot

I don't drink or do drugs

Agony of Love

Pain drifts sweetly 
Across my mind 
Forever forsaking love 
Of any kind 

I die to the 
Ever blossoming 
Storms within me 

Rising just below the clouds 
I sink into my shell 
Misery wraps me up like a blanket 
On cold winter nights 

I sing sweet victory 
Never again will one hurt me 
My heart beats with ever agony 

No more listening 
To blue bird's song 
The chime hanging outside my window 
Has long rusted down 

I don't hear that music anymore 
Long died like the love that once beat within my heart 
The songs of a weeping willow are the only thing I hear. 

By Bernice Bowling

Crying tears of Rain

Crying black tears of rain 
I sit shrouded in blame 
I never meant to hurt you 
I never meant to cry 
I only wanted to know you 
Bye and bye 

I sang a song of friendship 
I sang a song of love 
I care about you anyway 
But not the way it seemed 

Drops of water flowing from my eyes 
I never meant to hurt you 
I never meant to cry. 
I only wanted to know you 
Bye and bye 

My love is for friendship 
Nothing means more 
I want you to know this 
I care more 
Please don't hate me 
I could never stand that. 

I never meant to hurt you 
I never meant to cry 
I only wanted to know you 
bye and bye. 

By: Bernice Bowling

CRY'S FROM WITHIN

CRY'S FROM WITHIN 

Blood and tears drown my sleep 
as I listen to the anger burning inside me 
Black souls weep at thundering clouds 
bringing me closer to my will 

Scarlet clothes drenched in rain 
screaming for the sun 
I stand crying for release 
holding onto an opened letter 


Vital fluids stain my hands 
as I reach for tomorrow 
Hearing no calls for aid 

I slip the knife just a little bit deeper 
walking away glad that life is over 
she never wanted it anyway. 


By: Bernice Bowling

Crazy

Lies, lies, and more lies 
They're all around me 
I get sick of lies 
It's foolish pride 
but hey 
It's just a game you see 
Like many more 
The selfish are poor 
Running in a daze 

There's many more you see 
and tomorrow another day 
Saw some old friends 
and some new 
Everyone thinks I am a fool 
LOL, but I know 
I always know. 
Why do I let this go on 
To see where it goes curiosity killed the cat. 
I always was too curious for my own good. 

Stand up in the crowd 
listen to the roaring laughter 
stand up and take a bow 
meet the greatest actor 
you ever saw. 
I smile and laugh 
and you stumble and fall, lol. 

By: Bernice Bowling