Agony of Love

Pain drifts sweetly 
Across my mind 
Forever forsaking love 
Of any kind 

I die to the 
Ever blossoming 
Storms within me 

Rising just below the clouds 
I sink into my shell 
Misery wraps me up like a blanket 
On cold winter nights 

I sing sweet victory 
Never again will one hurt me 
My heart beats with ever agony 

No more listening 
To blue bird's song 
The chime hanging outside my window 
Has long rusted down 

I don't hear that music anymore 
Long died like the love that once beat within my heart 
The songs of a weeping willow are the only thing I hear. 

By Bernice Bowling

Crying tears of Rain

Crying black tears of rain 
I sit shrouded in blame 
I never meant to hurt you 
I never meant to cry 
I only wanted to know you 
Bye and bye 

I sang a song of friendship 
I sang a song of love 
I care about you anyway 
But not the way it seemed 

Drops of water flowing from my eyes 
I never meant to hurt you 
I never meant to cry. 
I only wanted to know you 
Bye and bye 

My love is for friendship 
Nothing means more 
I want you to know this 
I care more 
Please don't hate me 
I could never stand that. 

I never meant to hurt you 
I never meant to cry 
I only wanted to know you 
bye and bye. 

By: Bernice Bowling

CRY'S FROM WITHIN

CRY'S FROM WITHIN 

Blood and tears drown my sleep 
as I listen to the anger burning inside me 
Black souls weep at thundering clouds 
bringing me closer to my will 

Scarlet clothes drenched in rain 
screaming for the sun 
I stand crying for release 
holding onto an opened letter 


Vital fluids stain my hands 
as I reach for tomorrow 
Hearing no calls for aid 

I slip the knife just a little bit deeper 
walking away glad that life is over 
she never wanted it anyway. 


By: Bernice Bowling

Crazy

Lies, lies, and more lies 
They're all around me 
I get sick of lies 
It's foolish pride 
but hey 
It's just a game you see 
Like many more 
The selfish are poor 
Running in a daze 

There's many more you see 
and tomorrow another day 
Saw some old friends 
and some new 
Everyone thinks I am a fool 
LOL, but I know 
I always know. 
Why do I let this go on 
To see where it goes curiosity killed the cat. 
I always was too curious for my own good. 

Stand up in the crowd 
listen to the roaring laughter 
stand up and take a bow 
meet the greatest actor 
you ever saw. 
I smile and laugh 
and you stumble and fall, lol. 

By: Bernice Bowling

Lived to See

Worlds of love once 
Caressed your skin 
Cherished your words 
Each and every one 
Clung to every touch of your finger 
Embraced every tone in your voice 
Both good and bad 
In hopes that it would last and last and last 

But the energizer bunny did go bad 
Now she's mad. It's getting out of town time fast 
At least for him 
She's dressed in black and looking reputable, searching
How much money do you want to bet that she finds it? 

Bored with the game he played. 
Leaving him behind 
Tear stained eyes 
She moves on 
To dumb to know what he had lost 
She laughs because she knows. 
She knows too well 
And someday he will too. 

Years later: 
Don't you cry, said a friend. 
You dry your eyes 
Maybe energizer can make another bunny 
I doubt it, she's one of a kind. 
There can be no other 
Now he's got her 
It's plain to see she is like something I have never seen 
Wild and Free 
Too bad, I stayed drunk and missed it. 


By: Bernice Bowling

My Life

Happiness flows freely 
In a river that's not run dry. 
Smiling embraces my face and hair 
Things are different 
Time has passed 
I've moved on 
And I'm glad 
I wanted more 
Something that wasn't for me 
But thank God someone up above knew more than me. 

My life is free now 
I can dance and sing 
Allowing peace to come in and cleanse me 
Laughter reigns when I think of my future 
It holds such fun things 
I can't wait to meet you. 
I'm happy about what's coming now 
I have nothing to dread 
I've put it all in God's hands 
Cause he does know best. 

By: Bernice Bowling

Don't just sit there and cry

What's there to be happy about? 
One person said. 
Happiness is a state of mind. 
It's a choice you see 
It's up to you 
Choose and you will see. 

Your child is a reason to be happy 
Endless possibilities are hidden in each day 
Find them and experience all the joys meant to be 
Smile today is a new day 
Forget about the sorrows life brings 
Loved one's passed were a joy to have. 
What if you never had them? 
Be glad you see for what you had and have 

Dance, sing, make your own music. 
Enjoy who you are. 
Forget about everyone else 
Forget about all the lies 
Do they even matter? 
Tell them all to kiss your Hooray 
Don't let people upset you. 

Dress up, do your thing 
Dance and sing 
Enjoy life 
Take pictures 
Let everyone see 
The smile on your face 
The one is hidden inside 
Waiting for you to decide 
Your life is worth living. 

By: Bernice Bowling

Get on with you're life

I sit here in tears as I realize the damage that has been done 
the pain, the suffering, and whatever else you want to pile on 
but I don't want to remember this you see 
I want to go on with my life and be happy and free 

I want to forget about him and what all he did to me 
It's in the past and let that past be 
I don't want to go back there 
I'm moving on 
I'm not staying stuck in the mud 
With more pain suffering and abuse 

I went through hell and If it was left up to him I would still be 
enjoying whatever he decided to put me through. 
A dagger in the heart! 
I'm tired, I want to live 
I don't want to go through any more pain 
Just let me be 

Can I have a life without pain? 
Can I please? Haven't I had enough? 
I am so Tired of this. 
It's time to stop. 
That dagger is being pulled out of my heart 
I am thrusting it back into yours 
That's where it belongs. 

You lived to hurt and cause suffering to others 
Just because you hurt 
Well no more. 
I am not playing your game 
I'm out of here. 
I've got some living to do. 

By: Bernice Bowling

The Night

Loving night's air 
Dancing underneath a full moon 
Feels like lightning and thunder 
As I ride the winds of time 
Laughter went mad 
Feeling giddy inside 
Can help but smile 
Living the single life. 
I love it here 
I am free 
I spread my wings and I fly 
Nothing to bind me 
Everything is free 
On the wings of the night air 
Feel the coolness 
Electricity kisses me 
Seducing me further into the night 
I let go 
Raindrops hit my skin 
Making me wet all over 
I make love to the night 
Feeling the excitement against my skin 
Caressing me with its sweet embrace 
Naked and wild passions unleashed 
Uninhibited sexual embraces letting go 
Never have I felt such love and freedom in one touch 
Forever my lover 
Forever my friend 
Live into becoming one with the night air 

By: Bernice Bowling

Where's My Mousai ?

Where's My Mousai?

I speak...... 
No voice, no motivation 
I Lost my muse 
Life seems no more 
God help me. 
I want him back. 
Even when I had him 
It meant constant sorrow. 

Perdition is seeable 
Now standing in shadows of the sun 
In oblivion 
Facedown 
Waiting, wanting to die 

Please take my life 
Give me something new 
Excitement, travel 
Joy, someone to love 
who will love me too? 

BY: Bernice Bowling

It's just me

Death shadows over many. 
Wishing you were here 
Candy cane kisses to comfort me 
Oh, what a thrill. 

My shadows embrace darkens 
My mind. 
He comforts me 
Helps me to unwind 
He was a friend in college and throughout time 

My forever man 
Secret lover 
My constant companion 
Dangerous tides 
Rolling in 
Storms coming 
He too is my friend 
I love storm 

He rains upon me 
Blackens my face with his water 
Cooling my hot embrace 
The hidden treasure of darkness 
Still left unleashed 
HAHA wait until they get a glimpse 
The real me 
The dark one 
The other me. 

Waiting patiently 
Trying not to release but to heal 
They don't care 
Stop and stare 
Don't make peace 
Make war with me 
See what you will get 
You might regret 
I'm not a soft bunny rabbit 
For you to pet. 

By: Bernice Bowling

Hot Dogs and Flap Jacks

Hot dogs and flapjacks 
this heat is getting bad 
no air and I'm Here burning up in torture 
Sweating wiping away like big old drops of rain 
I need another cold shower 

I need winter 
I need ice 
I need a picture of the water 
Hot dogs and flapjacks 
I am burning up in torture 

Who turned on the grill? 
Is that more heat I feel 
Man this sweat is unreal 
My clothes are next to nothing 
I need My A/C 

Hot dogs and flapjacks 
I'm burning up in torture 
My skin is wet 
I lay in sweat 
waiting up until morning 

That airman better hurry up 
I can wait until Monday morning 
Open the doors, turn on the fans 
Hot and humid and too many rooms 
Why did we build such big houses 

Hot dogs and flapjacks 
I need the air conditioner bad 
Tonight I'm sleeping out under the stars 
That house is way too stuffy 
Central air, Oh how I miss you. 

By Bernice Bowling

Unchanged

He spoke to me, 
After ignoring me, 
When he found another. 
Married was she. 
He didn't care. 

I was nothing, 
Suddenly I'm something. 
I bet he tells her the same. 
Who's to blame? 
I hate them both! 

His drivers license is now gone, 
Suddenly I'm here again. 
I must have disappeared! 
I mean how could I not have? 
He didn't see me? 

Now he does! 
I'm visible once more! 
Wow-what a change! 
Oh poor you, 
Do you need me? 

I'm sorry. 
Well, at least you have her. 
What's that, you need me too? 
Well isn't that convenient! 
Oh, what to do? 


I'm so sick, 
I'm blue, 
From being used, 
And most of all, 
I'm tired of you. 

I still love you though. 
I still care, 
And I want to be there. 
I have to guard my heart, 
Even when we are apart. 

I don't want to hurt you. 
Even though you hurt me. 
I still have to be stolen. 
I have to be real. 
I can't let myself feel. 

I may try to help you. 
Will it hurt? 
Can I be more than dirt? 
I don't want to be with you, 
not anymore, it's untrue. 

You want to change! 
Why you can't even be my friend, 
Unless you get something in the end. 
What will I do? 
I am not a fool !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 


By: Bernice Bowling

The Wall

Anger boiling inside from where it comes, 
I can't decide. 
Hurt, mad, 
I lie naked, trying to hide. 

Running here and there in the middle of nowhere. 
Isolated from anyone drawing nigh, 
Still hurt, refusing to cry a tear. 

Hardening my heart, 
Allowing no hurt or pain to be here again, 
Like a snake, I strike sensing danger will appear. 

Desert winds blow cool at night 
Shadows surround me in my fight. 
Struggling to survive 
Trying to breathe 

Someone revive me 
My heart starts to beat. 
Cold winds, please surround me 
Protect me, help me not to fear 

Someone else is coming. 
Shadows come here, 
Listen to sounds of footsteps 
Watch out, he might be near. 

By: Bernice Bowling

The Vampire

The Vampire 

I am the dark-winged one that walks your dreams 
I am not what I seem 
There is darkness within me 
I come undone in the realms 
I'll take you for a ride, and climb on the inside of you to hide. 
I unclean you up, and take away your guts. 
I feed on the blood of life 
devouring until you are left a shadowless mass. 

I will rip you apart, take out your heart 
Making sure no crumbs left to sniff 
I'll take you for granted 

Secret dwelling drinkers drink you up 
As I am their high caller. 
I call to them. They're my understudy 
I ravenously leave my mark 
scratches down your back 
Left panting and drained, energy gone. 
I leave for a night 
My demons delight 
In my pleasure, I recite the customs handed down for ages 

I laugh at the night stalker 
He is mine to do with as will 
I smirk at the one who seeks his thrill 
for within him, I will kill the beast 
No one left will run 
for the demon clutches the feet 
It's over the game has been one! 
Victory belongs to The Shadow 
The Shadow is my friend.  

By: Bernice Bowling

Freedom, Wild and Untamed

Freedom, Wild and Untamed 

Sitting on a private beach in North Carolina, I saw her. She was beautiful, muscular, and strong. She was a Palomino. Her cream-colored main, flowing freely in the wind as she ran through the rushing waters of the sea. I could almost feel the ocean waters as it crashed up against her heels. She was beautiful in the wildest sense. She was free, untamed, unbridled, running with the waves of the ocean. I looked to where she was running and the light is shown down upon her, from the lighthouse, illuminating her, making her Main shine underneath a midnight sky. Swiftly she ran without fear. The waves of the ocean seemed to almost overtake her as she crashed through them. She was running toward the lighthouse. Suddenly, I realized that palomino was me! 

By: Bernice Bowling

Singed

Singed 

Cruel, cold, calculated 
You swept in 
Picked me up 
And we sinned 

You smiled 
When I cried 
You loved to lie 
She here and she there 

Deceived, cloaked in a lie 
I took you in 
As a friend, a lover 
I was there 

You blew 
I flew 
You called 
I ran 
I rescued you or tried to 

I fell in 
my heart was turned to ash or so I thought 
It healed fast 
Words of whisper caressed my ear 

Only a single was all it was 
There is still pain 
Funny how whispered words bring healing 
To a broken heart. 

By: Bernice Bowling

Secret Toy Surprise

I saw her in Walmart, 
The skanky ho, 
Why I wouldn't have touched her with the tips of my finger 
Or a ten-foot pole. 

Stringy unwashed hair, 
Unbathed and unclean, 
She thinks you are a dream, 
He He He 

Can't wait to see what tomorrow brings. 
She and her crackerjack prize of a man, 
She thinks she got it from me, 
The thing about it is a ho's a ho, 
And you don't have to care for a ho. 

I've moved on, 
So please leave me alone. 
Don't want your drama spilling up in here, 
Go home, whore moan, lol. 

By: Bernice Bowling

Fire Dancing

Energetically inclined, 
Pressing on towards new horizons. 
Smiling cat faces, 
Dancing on the wings of time. 

The newness of dew hazily pouring in, 
Wetness on my skin; 
Wiping away gentle drops of rain. 
Shaman tries to cast his spell. 

No more slaved enchantment, 
Running free. 
Winds blowing, cooly, brushing my hair, 
Continuously existing voluntarily. 

Pleasurable sensations hastily, moving, 
Forward, down my spine. 
Kindled emotions letting go, 
All hell breaking loose. 

By: Bernice Bowling

The Dance

Droplets of sorrow drift slowly away; 
Numbness setting in, 
Laughter went missing, 
Trees sway to the songs of songbirds, 
While the cool summer breeze blows by. 

Drowning in yesterday's love begotten. 
Sea of mindless chanting begins, 
Winding and swaying to summer's song, 
Skipping through maniacal imaginations. 

Laughter soon comes in, 
Wildly unhinged, 
Inhibitions fall to the ground, 
Naked unsettled, and wild, 
Dancing under the moon. 

Forever dying, 
Caressing silver Tins. 
Holding that human carousel, 
Hysteria controlling, 
Unleashing chains. 

By: Bernice Bowling

The Cry of a Broken Heart

Dance my child, dance
Listen to the music of the wind
Hear the cry of the willow
Sing sorrows last song

Birds of the air cry tonight
As they breathe their last breath
They know the cheater's gone away again
Leave this place

Don't die here
Leave while you still can
Cheaters bring wreckage and betrayal
Run my child, run free in the wind

Learn to dance again
To love again
But never to trust
Never to trust again.

By: Bernice Bowling

From The Lips Of Darkness

From the Lips of Darkness 



In a woodland surrounded by foliage and nature, lurked an ancient creature, scorned and filled with rage as she watched in silence. While thoughts flooded her mind of the one who scorned her. Her long, claw-like fingers rest upon her chin as she thought about the punishment that awaited the unaware. 
As beautiful as she was with her long, dark, wavy hair, cascading down her back, and resting upon her ample, breast, she was throbbing from the blood flow rushing through her veins that filled her with the passion of revenge. Her sensuous, curves transforming her into a beauty unmatched by nature. 
Bloodthirsty and hungry, she opened up her lips to sing as he drew closer to where she was hiding. She began to sing softly, and hauntingly as the vines begin to wind and climb themselves into place. 
What was that sweet melody, he thought, as he reached the edge of the woods. It was calling to him, wanting him to come closer. Come closer, come closer into my dreams. Take my hand let me lead you the way, the voice spoke. 
Mindlessly, he walked into the woods reaching toward an unseen hand. The vines closing in behind him; blocking anyone else from entering in and preventing any escape. 
As he reached the heart of the woods, the land seemed to spread out. The music stopped. Looking up, he saw her, dropping down as if from what seemed to be out of nowhere, and landing steadily on her feet like a cat. She smiled, as she drew closer, him still not yet remembering, he watched this enchanting creature move with such grace, until she kissed him on his lips. Suddenly fear gripped him as he thought he had seen this face before; touched these sweet lips. Memories began to flood back to him from many years ago.......It was then he tried to scream, but no sound would come. He couldn't move. The vines were wrapping around him. Now ridden and trembling in fear as he turned white, he knew who she was. Her what once was, normal teeth, now distorted into monstrous blades ravenous with venom, right before his very eyes. He watched in terror as she opened wide her mouth as she began to consume him little by little. 
She loved the feel of his blood flowing down her chin. The taste of it in her mouth delighted her with an almost sexual glee and satisfaction. Feeling it and touching the torn flesh, she could sense and hear his agony from deep within. There was none like it anywhere else. Oh, how she loved the excitement of the kill. 
Limb from limb she ripped him apart slowly and joyfully, laughing, hungrily, devouring his entire body; making sure to keep him alive so he could feel every ounce of pain that she bestowed upon him. Until finally when he had nothing left, but his torso and head, did she come down fast and hard, ripping off his head in an instant and swallowing it whole. leaving behind a bloodless upper body lying on the ground. 
She immediately drew back into the shadows of the woods, and her vines going with her. Leaving the torso behind for the beast of the forest. She always did believe in feeding the animals. 

By: Bernice Bowling