I died today edited

 I died today.

My heart began to bleed.

something squeezed it--

it began to crumble.

I wheezed, clutching my knees.

I curled up.

I died.

The sky was dark.

A storm was brewing.

I was unaware, 

Unprepared.

Lighting struck,

Thunder exploded,

I died,

 laying on the ground.

Blood poured.

Strangers passed–

No one seemed to notice.

Bruised, and torn,

I lay there dying.

Screams emerged.

Anger roared,

Separations came.

I cried,

Sleeping in the dirt.

I died today,

My heart in my hand.

 By: Bernice Bowling

A million tears Edited

I Cried a Million Tears

I cried a million tears

And watched them fade away—

Never knowing, day by day,

What might come my way. 

I thought of suicide 

More times than I can count,

Each year passing

Feeling like nothing would ever change.

I cried a million tears

And watched them fade away.

One Morning, I was laughing

I packed my bags and left–

Just for a little while,

To give myself some rest. 

I cried a million tears

And left them on the ground.

Things get better year by year,

But sorrow still remains.

Nothing is ever perfect–

But atleast, it didn’t stay the same. 

I cried a million tears

And watched them fade away. 

Suicide still lives in my mind,

Just not every day. 

My mother is gone, 

My papaw and daddy too.

I cried a million tears

And watched them buried in the ground. 

Years have passed;

My sorrow is softer now.

But new devils still appear.

I cried a million tears

And still watch them fade away.

Roses still have thorns, 

And joy walks hand in hand with pain. 

Yes, I cry a million tears–

But God washes everyone away. 

By: Bernice Bowling