Lost and Alone

Wondering endlessly,
to the music playing.
Drifting slowly down the hall,
I sing, but no one listens.
I laugh but no one is there.
I had a friend once,
but they defriended me without a cause or care.
I am alone with nothing but the cool wind blowing .
Sorrows melody cheerfully playing.

I cry, I run but no one catches me when I fall.
I die daily just a little inside .
Dying for release from this prison.
Echos of friendships,
Only mere shadows now.
I am alone !

Jesus lift me up.
Please come and get me.
Take me away from here.
Rescue me ,and give me hope and new freedom
Surround me with good laughter and cheer.
Give me joy and peace.
Let me have victory.
Please please sweet Jesus take me away from here.

By Bernice Bowling

Terry's word from the Lord to me at Horse Creek Holiness church

Something amazing happened tonight. I never ever wear a skirt unless I am going to church. Well I had to go down town to a meeting and I had no clean shorts to wear so I wore a skirt . When I got down there my friend Faye wanted me to go to a woman's conference with her and she had tried to call me to tell me to wear a skirt, but had missed me. The Lord wanted me at that conference . 
When I got there the whole service was stuff I needed to hear. I even got prayed for and the lord gave the speaker a word for me . It was things she could never have known unless the Lord told her.
Praise the Lord for his many blessings.


This is what she told me. She told me to never think that God loves everybody else better then me and that he died for me , and she told me I was loved and that I was not an outcast. She told the spirit of depression to leave me and she prayed for God to bless me and to bless my life. 


When she was preaching she preached on keeping on walking and to not give up and to pray hard for our promises and not to pray mean to God but to pray like God I ask you to ---------------------------------- and devil this is my promise from God and you can't have it. She said o get down to business in prayer with God for our promises. She talked about her hair coming out and when she found out she had throid disease that she started taking the pills to help it and it stopped.


God knew I need to hear this and he healed her from a horrible wreck she was in and if God can do that he can do anything.  get alone with God and start seeking him and he will reveal things to you.




A women's conference Every 3rd Monday of the month at 7:00 pm

Cold Winds Blow

Sing, sing, sing to me 
wind's of time 
lost and long ago 
memories haunt 

Now I stand mean and hard 
Ready to meet the uncertain 
Inner crys collide 
Making me wonder 
If there will ever be another 

I cry more 
Tears of rain 
November's rain 
Wounded and withdrawn 
Protective shields becoming sanctuary's 

Keeping away betrayals 
Before chance gives way 
Never wanting to confident 
Another. 


By: Bernice Bowling

All About Halloween

These are all old poems. I wrote them when I was a sinner.






A perfect Halloween 
Scary movies 
Pocorn favorites 
Candy apples 
Carnivals 
Haunted houses 
And looking glasses 
Come join the fun 
Spooky music 
Good jokes and laughter 
Family and friends 
All joining in 
On what fall 
Has to offer 


Research, research 
The origin of Halloween 
Fun friends and laughter 
is not what it is 
The true reason for Halloween 
Is mean. 
Today we celebrate in fun 
but yesterday 
back in the old day 
they worshiped 
and tried to keep 
evil away


When I was young 
I didn't like to trick, 
Or treat 
I Just wanted to see 
costumes parties 
and fun 
nothing boring 
and hum drum 


But mom the kiddies 
only trick or treat 
go on child 
soon you will be to old 
to go knocking 
door to door 
Then you will 
be begging for more 
no I want 
you'll see. 

The only place 
now I want to treat 
is to my aunties house 
she has home made stuff to eat. 






On Halloween 
watching scary movies 
was a real treat 
then my mom got sick 
she died the next day 
Nov 1st 
so Halloween isn't as fun 
as it used to be. 
But don't worry after Nov 1st 
I will be smiles once more 
It happens every year now 
This year I will fight it 
With the help of the Lord. 


As long as it makes them happy 
it's fine with me 
your only young once 
so let them be 

I like the carnival 
and fall festival fun 
changing leaves 
and those straw standing things 
out in the front lawn 


ALL BY:  Bernice Bowling

Crazy

This is an old old poem. I just wanted to add it. It was a poem I wrote when I was a sinner.




THIS POEM IS ABOUT A GUY I MET AND IT'S A LONG STORY. IF YOU WANT TO KNOW MORE JUST ASK ME IF YOU ARE A FRIEND OF MINE, AND i HAVE YOU ON FACEBOOK.




Lies, lies and more lies 
There all around me 
I get sick of lies 
It's foolish pride 
but hey 
It's just a game you see 
Like many more 
The selfish are poor 
Running in a daze 
I won some ribbons today 
How I was pleased. 
It tickled me 

I feel green 
There's many more you see 
and tomorrows another day 
Saw some old friends 
and some new 
Everyone thinks I am a fool 
LOL ,but I know 
I always know. 
Why do I let this go on 
To see where it goes 
curiosity killed the cat. 
I always was to curious for my own good. 

Stand up in the crowd 
listen to the roaring laughter 
stand up and take a bow 
meet the greatest actor 
you ever saw. 
I smile and laugh 
and you stumble and fall, lol. 


BY : Bernice Bowling

Lived To See

This is an old old poem. I just wanted to add it. It was a poem I wrote when I was a sinner.


Worlds of love once 
Caressed your skin 
Cherished your words 
Each and every one 
Clung to every touch of your finger 
Embraced every tone in your voice 
Both good and bad 
In hopes that it would last and last and last 

But the energizer bunny done went bad 
Now she's mad. It's get out of town time fast 
At least for him 
She's dressed in black and looking reputable, searching 
How much money do you want to bet that she finds it, lol. 

Bored with the game he played. 
Leaving him behind 
Tear stained eyes 
She moves on 
Do dumb to know what he had lost 
She laughs cause she knows. 
She knows too well 
And some day he will too. 

Years later: 
Don't you cry, said a friend. 
You dry your eyes 
Maybe energizer can make another bunny 
I doubt it, she's one of a kind. 
There can be no other 
Now he's got her 
It's plain to see she is like something I have never seen 
Wild and Free 
To bad I stayed drunk, and missed it. 


BY : Bernice Bowling

My Life Now

This is an old old poem. I just wanted to add it. It was a poem I wrote when I was a sinner.


Happiness flows freely 
In a river that's not run dry. 
Smiling embraces my face and hair 
Things are different 
Time has passed 
I've moved on 
And I'm glad 
I wanted more 
Something that wasn't for me 
But thank God some one up above knew more then me. 

My life is free now 
I can dance and sing 
Allowing peace to come in and cleanse me 
Laughter reigns when I think of my future 
It holds such fun things 
I can't wait to meet. 
I'm happy for what's coming now 
I have nothing to dread 
I've put it all in God's hands 
Cause he does know best. 


BY : Bernice Bowling