The Dance

Droplets of sorrow drift slowly away

numbness setting in, 

laugher went missing

Trees sway to the songs of songbirds

while cool summer breeze blows by

Drowning in yesterday love begotten

sea of mindless chanting begins

winding and swaying to summers song

skipping through maniacal imaginations

laughter soon comes in

wildly unhinged

inhibitions fall to the ground

naked unsettled and wild

dancing under the moon

forever dying

caressing silver tins

holding tight that human carousel

hysteria controlling 

unleashing  chains

By: Bernice Bowling

Gods Cry (edited)

My sorrow beckons me to tears 

as I sit here wondering 

about the years I've wasted.

The rain has not forgotten me–

 she still pours,

 washing away my fears.

Pain exists in the form of shadows.

I dance away the times gone by,

 listening to echo’s song,

I twirl and leap to his voice,

 I want to rejoice–

 but alas, my sorrow won’t let me.

How do I say No when I see his face?

 My heart does crumble to the floor.

He doesn't care. 

He only ignores. 

I scratch his face from my mind,

 then slowly plummet into hate.

My heart hardens

as the pain escapes.

I watch the mailman run for pleasure

As I sic Esmerelda on him

I laugh as she bites him on the rear–

taking a little more than he asked for.

My cruelty won’t last.

with each step forward, I grasp,

trying to make the happiness last–

if only but for a moment.

I sigh with cosmic relief

when I see some release 

of what I've been holding inside.

Still, I've got to let it hide. 

no one will know the pain, 

The storm inside my mind.

I'm scary and unknown–

 Except to my friends. 

Some of them are now gone.

God keeps talking to me,

telling me to dry my tears,

and come home.

But home scares me. 

People are cruel and mean,

with their judgmental gleams.

I stay away–

 too scared to stay.

Oh, I wish I had a way, 

maybe then I wouldn't decay.

God’s calling out my name.

I hear His voice.

“I am here, Lord 

Please help me come home–

I am lost and alone.

BY: Bernice Bowling

Hot Dogs and Flap Jacks (edited)

Hot dogs and flapjacks,

This heat is getting bad.

No air-- and I'm here,

Burning up in torture.

Sweating, wiping away

Big old drops of rain.

I need another cold shower.

I need winter.

I need ice.

I need a picture of the water.

Hot dogs and flapjacks--

I am burning up in torture.

Who turned on the grill?

Is that more heat I feel?

Man, this sweat is unreal.

My clothes are next to nothing.

I need My A/C.

Hot dogs and flapjacks--

I'm burning up in torture.

My skin is wet.

I lay in sweat,

Waiting up until morning.

That airman better hurry up--

I can wait until Monday morning.

Open the doors. Turn on the fans.

Hot and humid and too many rooms...

Why did we build such big houses?

Hot dogs and flapjacks--

I need the air conditioner bad.

Tonight, I'm sleeping out under the stars.

That house is way too stuffy.

Central air-- Oh, how I miss you.

By Bernice Bowling :)

Mixed Messages

Stamp out blossoms blooming freely

Tree’s of unwelcomeness, swiftly swaying 

Time bombs vastly ticking

Crossing wires electrifying, distance

Storms a coming

Rain descends

Dancing leaves rustle

Trouble brewing volcanic eruptions

Furries rage

Night never-ending

Far distant cry’s

Further into night

Frantic chanting winds

blowing way out

Silently listening

Humming voice within

Quietly speaking

Trust.

There is a way

Whispering winds blow

Shy away shy away

Pathways of light

Illuminating darkness

Stand firm

Dissolving waters 

Wash away

Sands of time

BY: Bernice Bowling

Forgiving Someone When You Would Like To Smack Um

When someone you trust breaks a promise and hurts you, you are tempted to retaliate, either by physical violence or some sort of malicious behavior.  What are you going to do when someone seemingly lies to your face, breaks a promise, and does something they know will humiliate or hurt you. What do u do?  Well if u are a Christian you have to try, and show love and forgive. That is the hardest thing in the world to do. Don't do anything until you have cried all your tears away, and thrown all your tantrums you're going to throw, before God.  The bible says something about if you have something against somebody then you should go and talk to them about it and only them. If they won't listen then get an elder or a preacher ( I can't remember which) from the church and then go and try to talk to them again about it.  Anyway, after the fire and ice in your blood has cooled down, and you no longer want or are willing to do something bad to them, lol, then do your talking to God. Because if you don't wait until your calm, it is hard to hear from Him. Because He speaks in a still small voice.  Ask him to help show you what to do. Most of the time it is best just to give it to God, and let him take care of it. Then you do your part by letting it go. You have to release it, and forget it. Give it to God. Try to be peaceful and calm. Never let um see u sweat. I don't believe in letting people run over you, but I don't believe in disgracing God's name either if you can help it. Like I said, sometimes it is hard. If you do mess up, just ask God to forgive you and He will, cause he loves you.  Don't forget you have to forgive or you want to be forgiven!

Freedom

Sitting on a private beach in North Carolina, I saw her. She was beautiful, muscular, and strong. She was a Palomino. Her cream-colored Maine, flowing freely in the wind as she ran through the rushing waters of the sea. I could almost feel the ocean waters as it crashed up against her heels. She was beautiful in the wildest sense. She was free, untamed, unbridled, running with the waves of the ocean. I looked to where she was running and the light is shown down upon her, from the lighthouse, illuminating her, making her Maine shine underneath a midnight sky. Swiftly she ran without fear. The waves of the ocean seemed to almost overtake her as she crashed through them. She was running toward the lighthouse. Suddenly, I realized that palomino was me!


By: Bernice Bowling

When it is hard to love

When someone is always pouting, ruining plans with their actions and attitudes, What do you do?
Do what pleases God. What you feel peace about, and if you can't seem to find peace, get by yourself and pray. Ask God to show you what to do. Take a walk in the park while you are talking to God. Let Him help you. God knows what you have need of, but He wants us to ask him, to talk to him. God wants our fellowship with Him. He misses us when we don't pray, and talk to Him. The same way we get lonely and want companionship so does God.

We all have to deal with difficult people, it's how we handle the situation is that matters most. Do we act out and pout in response to their bad behavior, or do we try to walk in love despite our anger, hurt feelings, or whatever? It's hard to not lash out, and I know I have failed in this area many many times, but we can't give up when we do. That's when we pick ourselves up off the floor and try it again asking God to forgive us and to help us. God will help us if we allow Him to direct our path. He will show us the steps to take. Trust God, He knows what He's doing. :)